The day before yesterday I was dematting my Persian cat and finally had recourse to scissors. With which I cut him. I didn't see that at first, he's got so much fur. And I was *so* sure that I wasn't too near to his skin. All of a sudden, there it was - an opening in his skin that I thought was as big as a tennis ball, but when the vet looked, it was about a quarter inch square. Kitty got stitches. The vet said not to feel bad, she said it happens.
Don't feel bad? The guilt is terrible. This is what I want to ask you about. I've been in shock ever since, coming out of it now. I was disoriented, freezing cold, electric zingies running up and down my right side, constant trembling and shuddering, and passing out a couple of times.
I feel like a selfish turd for making this all about me. Oh fine, *I* must've been traumatized. How about the poor cat? I've done all that I can for him, and then some - you know how guilt goes? I begged him to eat a bowl full of Temptations. He ate. Right now he's asleep in my red plaid mohair cape, the one I won't lend to people.
Here's the question: is a person who already has PTSD more prone to trauma and additional PTSD?
Don't feel bad? The guilt is terrible. This is what I want to ask you about. I've been in shock ever since, coming out of it now. I was disoriented, freezing cold, electric zingies running up and down my right side, constant trembling and shuddering, and passing out a couple of times.
I feel like a selfish turd for making this all about me. Oh fine, *I* must've been traumatized. How about the poor cat? I've done all that I can for him, and then some - you know how guilt goes? I begged him to eat a bowl full of Temptations. He ate. Right now he's asleep in my red plaid mohair cape, the one I won't lend to people.
Here's the question: is a person who already has PTSD more prone to trauma and additional PTSD?
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